Boring Blog

There are a few blogs that I read everyday. Some of them don’t post anything new for a long time. I often wonder why people don’t update their blogs more often. They have boring blogs but I look at them each day anyway hoping that there is a new post.

The other day my friend Susan (who I think may be the only person who reads this blog) said to me, “Your blog is boring.” I realized right away that she was right and that I have to update the blog. So much has happened, I have seen so many places, and I need to take some time to update this blog with what has happened.

I am going to try to blog a bit at a time and update all my readers (Susan) on my life. This is the first of hopefully many blogs to come.

Birthday Week

So this past week was a big week for me. It was the week leading up to my 28th Birthday. Each day prior to my birthday God gave me a special gift and I wanted to blog about it so that I remember to be thankful for what God has given me.

Wednesday May 21

David Cook won American Idol! It was such an exciting night that shocked me. I was not expecting my favorite guy to win. I was expecting David Archuleta to win and it was so exciting that David Cook won instead.

Thursday May 22

The work ladies took me out to lunch for my birthday. It was really special because in four birthday’s here there had never been a lunch from the ladies I work with. It was great to spend time with Suzy, Becky, Sandy, Kelly, Kristen and Yvonne.

I also got to cook a scrumptious dinner with Caitlin and hold my precious nephew Hayden.

Friday May 23

After years of wanting a video of Francis to be posted on our website, my dream came true. Mark worked on it a ton and it finally happened. I can’t believe it. (check out http://www.eternitybiblecollege.com/ to see the video, just click on Francis’ face).

Also, my long lost friend Mindy called me and asked to go to lunch with me. We went out to Sharkey’s and got to catch up, it was really nice. I only see her every few months so it was a good time.

Saturday May 24

I just had a chill day at home and relaxed and watched movies most of the day. It was good to just be around the house.

Sunday May 25

This day held an amazing surprise. I got to make rainbow lemon cupcakes with Jennifer and her friend (which was a fun experiment), and went to church at seven, but the surprise was when Kimberly called and said that her and her boyfriend (who I really like) were in town and wanted to stop by and say hi. (For more info on that see the post: an unexpected visit). It was a gift from God to have them come.

Monday May 26

I came back from my morning walk and the Larcombs were all loading into their truck and asked if I wanted to go to breakfast with them. I climbed in and we went out to breakfast. It was really fun to be with the whole family. The Drinkhall family also joined us, and they are a lot of fun as well. There was constant conversation.

I also got to scrapbook which I haven’t done in forever. It was so good to get more done. I made it through November 16th and EBC’s trip to Wicked.

Tuesday May 27

Brittany took me out to lunch at Musashi, which is a fabulous Japanese food restaurant. It was so so good. We ate in the Teppan section of the restaurant which was amazing. I had never been to a place like this where they prepared the food right in front of you! It was great!! The food was so delicious. I had salmon and Brittany had filet minon. The food and service was outstanding.

That night, the Larcombs threw me a surprise dinner party with a whole bunch of EBC students and the Beuvings and Kristen also came. Everything that they served had beans in it which are my favorite. Beans are amazing!

Wednesday May 28th

I showed up at work to find Mark there early as well as three girls: Hannah, Christine, and Mallory which had decorated my office with streamers, presents, and two huge signs. It was awesome. Kristen later showed up with balloons and the day started.

Everyone wished me a Happy Birthday who came into the office due to my streamers. Emily came and took me to lunch at Corner Bakery, it was so tasty!

The Snee’s took me out to dinner, it was amazing. We went to Sushi Traditions and had great food. I loved it. Mark had to leave to go to The Rock, and Caitlin surprised me with two little Ben and Jerry’s Ice Creams.

After that Christine came over and we went and rented Bella and grabbed some frozen yogurt. It was so good. Bella was an interesting movie and it was a fun night.

Overall, my birthday week was amazing. Thanks to all my friends who made it so special. I feel so hopeful for 2008 and hope that it will be amazing.

An Unexpected Visit

It was about halfway into our conversation when I realized that my face hurt from smiling. I must have been smiling the entire time we were talking. I can’t remember the last time my face hurt from smiling.

It was an unexpected visit, an amazing surprise just a few days before my birthday. I received the text from Kimberly around 5:30 saying that she and her boyfriend Derek were in the neighboring town. A few texts later we planned to meet at Starbuck’s around 9.

I beat them to Starbuck’s and when Derek and Kimberly walked in, and I couldn’t hide how much it meant to me that they were here. A few minutes into the conversation and I knew that they also knew how much it meant to me that they came to visit.

The beautiful part about it is that we didn’t do anything abstract or necessarily special. We just talked, laughed and learned more about each other. It was amazingly normal without pressure or expectation. I was genuinely who I am as were they. It was refreshing.

It was a true picture of how relationships should be in my opinion. Three friends sitting around telling stories about their lives and laughing. There should always be laughing.

They left about an hour after they arrived, and I went home feeling refreshed and myself again. I feel so thankful that God would bless me with their friendship. I just can’t wait until I see them again. My face hurts from smiling just thinking about it.

April 25, 2008

April 25th was one of the best days ever. I wanted to write about it so that I could document everything that happened that day so that I can remember all of it.
The day started out as any other day. I went to work. I had recently been trying to be funny so that my mood would follow and it would become a happy mood. Anyway, that morning Joshua, Kristen, Mark and I had an amazingly fun conversation that ended in at least one inside joke…”En Fuego.” None of us will ever see those two spanish words the same.
I got a call to go to lunch with Geoff, Stacy, and Bella…they were in town for a wedding. I met the Leatherman’s, Trent, Danny, and Wes at Chipotle. It was great food with great people. It just seemed normal to be with all of them. Bella is getting bigger and growing cuter and cuter by the day.
As I was walking to my car I realized…TODAY IS MY THREE YEAR ANNIVERSARY AT EBC!!!! I couldn’t believe that I had forgotten all day. That made me so happy that I had such a great morning and I knew that I was in store for much more excitement as the day went on.
In the afternoon I went grocery shopping for the Student Life Event that Mark and I had planned. After shopping I went straight to Joshua’s house to set up. It was neat to know while I was there that I could use anything that I wanted, and feel a bit “at home” even though I was at my bosses house. I was able to get everything ready a whole 15 minutes before everyone showed up. This means that I just sat there for 15 minutes…that does not happen in Student Life Event preparation.
So the BBQ started as planned, at around 5:30pm Kristen showed up to Joshua’s house. She was carrying a bouquet of flowers. I thought to myself, “She brought a centerpiece.” She walked over to me and handed me the flowers. “They were delivered for you” she said. I didn’t know who could have sent me the flowers but there they were, as beautiful as can be. I looked at the card, and it contained a sweet message from Heather, one of the girls in my Bible Study.

Beautiful Flowers from Heather C.

The BBQ came to a close and we left for our first ever EBC Mini Golf Tournament. We went to Mountasia in Santa Clarita. Around 20 students played in the Tournament. It was really great.

A Group Picture of the Students
My team consisted of Mark and Laura B and Andrew J. and I. Games are always more fun when you play them with Laura.

Laura and I

Mark and Andrew
It was a blast. We had a fun time and got to follow Kelsey, Sam, Karianne, Andrew, and Josh. The tournament ended with Andrew winning for our team and Malone winning overall.
Overall, it was just a fun, funny, and tremendously needed perfect day.

The Song

So today I have been thinking a lot. Thinking about how I really lack the faith to trust God in a lot of areas of my life. I have been so frustrated lately about where I am and why I am here. I thought that my life would look different from what it looks like now. I realize how much God does love me and care for me and I know that my life looks exactly how He wants it to look. As I was driving home tonight I was struggling thinking through this and I changed the music to more reflective music so that I could think more.

I put on my favorite song of the last year and began to sing. In the midst of the chorus I realized that the answer to all of my questions was within the words of the chorus. “Own me, Take all that I am, And heal me with the blood of the Lamb, mold me With Your gracious hand; Break me till I’m only Yours-Own me.” For a year I have been singing these lyrics and meaning it. “Take all that I am…mold me…break me till I’m only yours.” Now I am in the midst of it happening and instead of running to the arms of my Savior, I am trying to analyze why this is all happening and instead of trusting, I am worrying and taking all my burdens upon myself. He is breaking me to bring me closer to Him and I am ignoring Him because what I am going through is hard.

My prayers have changed tonight and I am now praying a different prayer. I haven’t stopped singing the song, but I am praying that God would change the desires of my heart, that He would help me to focus more on Him, and that I would be thankful for the things that He has given me.

Yes, my life doesn’t look like I thought that it would but God still does love me and has not forgotten me.

“God’s unfailing love for us is an objective fact affirmed over and over in the scriptures. It is true whether we believe it or not. Our doubts do not destroy God’s love, nor does our faith create it. It originates in the very nature of God, who is love, and it flows to us through our union with His beloved Son.” Jerry Bridges in Trusting God

From Squirrels to Rabbits

There are a few ways to get to the new house that I live in. I often choose a street that reminds me of the mountains that I used to live on. It starts or ends with a big curve and Lola (my car) and I both get excited to take that turn. It reminds me of the mountain. Tonight as I was driving home, singing acapella at the top of my lungs, I swerved to miss a rabbit. This is pretty customary at night, and it didn’t startle me but caused me to think of what else I used to swerve around. I had a hard time pinpointing it until I remembered the squirrels, up in the San Bernardino Mountains there are millions of grey squirrels. They are cute the first week that you live up there or if you are visiting, but after you live there you kind of get annoyed. They are always in the way, especially when you are behind the wheel. Now, I also had to swerve to miss bears and coyotes, but the squirrels were the most frequent.

In this thought process of thinking about squirrels and rabbits I was reminded how far God has led me in my journey through life. Not only from squirrels to rabbits, but from isolation into community. I can’t say that I understand the power of the church body when they are loving each other as the Bible tells us to, but I can tell you that in the past three years of being at Cornerstone and EBC, God has shown me time and time again how much I need the church body. Even though I am alone in the eyes of the world, I have a Savior that loves and amazes me everyday, and often times uses His people to show me that love. He has surrounded me by believers who love Him and point me towards His arms when I forget that they are there waiting to hold me.

The Lord is always faithful, the Lord is always good, the Lord is always merciful, the Lord is always my protector. Thank you Lord Jesus for what you have done in my life and how you are constantly working. I read Ephesians 3:14-21 this morning, and it just hits me time and time again how God does do abundantly more than we can ever ask or imagine.

Three years ago, living in a fifth wheel in the middle of a forest with bears, coyotes, and squirrels I never thought that I would be where I am today: content in God alone, patiently waiting and seeking after my Shepherd. “The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want.” Psalm 23:1.

And all this because of one rabbit that God put in my path.

Susan

As I watched the UHAUL go the opposite direction in my rear view mirror, I choked back tears and thought back to the first time that we met. It seemed ironic that it began distinctly backwards. It was me that was driving up in the UHAUL one Friday morning 14 months ago.

“Do you need help with those boxes?” Susan asked after coming home to find me unloading my things and moving in.

“You can but you don’t have to.” I replied. She immediately grabbed two and headed into my room asking me where I would like the boxes. She then went out again and again until all the boxes were safely stowed in my room.

“Let me know if you need anymore help.” She said as she set the last box down.

“Thank you I will.” I replied knowing that I wouldn’t ask her for help because I didn’t want to be a bother.

Looking back I didn’t have a clue as to what God was doing and how He was giving me a kindred spirit to be a constant companion and friend to me over the next year.

Susan and I both lived with Geoff and Stacy, a young married couple who had people live with them to help with the rent, and live in community with other believers. Susan and I were single 26 and 27 year old Christian women when we moved in together and little did I know that it would be the beginning of a friendship that I cherish in ways I never could have imagined.

Over the last fourteen months, she has been an amazing friend. She daily shows me an example of how I should be living as a Christian woman and how giving to others freely is easier than it sounds. She does it effortlessly and doesn’t think about herself. She has advised me, listened to me when I cried, comforted me when I had my heart broken. She has truly been the true meaning of a friend. Over the past year, we have come to laugh at the same jokes, cry at the same things, support one another in hard times, encourage one another and point each other back to the Bible when one of us has lost sight (it was usually me that needed the pointing).

The time came for us to move and without talking about it directly we both knew that we would do it together and help each other in every step of the move. We knew that even though we wouldn’t be living together, we had to move together. It was Susan who rented the UHAUL and then told me that we would move me first in the morning with the UHAUL that she rented. It took us one full day to pack us both up and say goodbye to the house that we lived in and our year together.

As she drove away, I wondered if she knew how she changed me as a person and as a friend. We now live a ten minute drive away and are both completely blessed with the situations that God has placed us in. I honestly think that a piece of me will always miss coming home and hanging out with her at the end of each day, but I also know that God has only closed the chapter of our lives where we live together and not the chapter of our friendship. I am blessed beyond belief to have her in my life, and look forward to the next stage of our friendship one that requires more work than just a four step walk down the hall.

Fun Post

I realized that my last two posts were serious, and I wanted to write one that wasn’t as serious. I mean, I am a fun girl. Okay, so random things about me that I think would be fun to share.

1. I love musicals. I wish I was in a musical every day of my life.

2. I qtip my ears every day. It is very important to have good ear health and it feels so nice to have clean ears.

3. I sing loudly in the car. I don’t so much dance, but I do love to sing. I also am unashamed of my singing. I will sing for everyone to see me.

4. I am accident prone and in 2006/2007 I broke my tailbone twice. I wouldn’t recommend doing it. It really hurts and then you can’t sit right for years. It is not fun. I also once got hit in the head by four boats and fell down a flight of concrete stairs within three days.

5. I talk abundantly after 10:00pm or so. I get really chatty and can’t stop talking even if I want to. I say all sorts of funny things because I loose my filter due to being tired.

6. I get really excited about marshmellows. I love them. There couldn’t be a better snack or dessert. I also love all things made with marshmellows.

Well that is all for now, I will probably think of other things later.

Luke 9:57-58

“As they were going along the road, someone said to him, “I will follow you wherever you go.” And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.”” Luke 9:57-58

The title of these verses in my Bible is “The Cost of Following Jesus.” The verses and the cost has never meant so much to me. Growing up I never moved once my entire life. I grew up in the house that I came home from the hospital to. I never realized how different that was, or how used I got to not changing. I moved to Biola and I had a slew of different roommates, but I stayed on or near campus the whole time. It was normal. Then there were my two years years in the trailer. Since moving to Simi Valley I have moved five times, and the sixth time will happen in the next two months.

The people that I am living with are moving and that brings about two different emotions. The first one is extreme sadness, the people that I currently live with are my family here. I consider them my brother and sister. I am so excited for what they are moving onto, but so sad that they are going to not be a daily part of my life. The second emotion is fear, fear that my entire life is going to change again, fear that I will be alone, fear that this is not the last move that I will have to make.

The hardest part of moving is knowing that nothing in my life is consistent. It is a reminder of my singleness. I guess I have the idea that once a person get married moving happens less. It may be a wrong perception, but once a person gets married, they have one thing that is consistent: a husband or wife. Moving makes me remember that I don’t have that one consistent thing.

This move is a challenge for me to daily remember that though I don’t have a husband, I do have God who promises that He will never leave me. He is my constant and it is my job to remember that every day of my life. So often I forget his faithfulness, and love. I assume that because I currently don’t have a place to live that for some reason, He has forgotten about me but the truth is, I have forgotten him. I have forgotten His faithfulness. I have forgotten His promises. I need to remember that I have a Savior, a Savior who is faithful to me in all my changes, and is knowledgeable of every aspect of my life. The trick is to keep my eyes focused on the Savior rather than focusing on what I perceive the problem to be. I need to remember that He is faithful even though I am not.

My First Blog

Well, I started blogging a few years back and then stopped after one blog. Well, I decided to start again out of a desire to write down my thoughts, journal more about what I am doing in life so that I don’t forget it some day, and discipline myself to write often. I am not expecting many people to read this, but maybe someone will find an interest in it. My life is fairly ordinary, but God works in ordinary, hence the name of this blog.

I titled it “Insignificant Details” because of my studies of the books of Ruth and Esther in the Old Testament. One commentary I read while researching Ruth mentioned looking for all the seemingly insignificant details that encompassed the story of Ruth. After finishing teaching Ruth I began reading and researching the book of Esther I couldn’t help but notice the same insignificant details throughout the book. Our lives are much like this. There are many seemingly insignificant details that happen every single day of our lives, but those of us that know Jesus as our personal Lord and Savior realize that these details are not seemingly insignificant, but that they are a part of the plan that God has set forth for our lives from the beginning of time.

God orchestrates seemingly insignificant details according to His will for us. Our problem is that we don’t tend to see God in the midst of all the details that seem so insignificant.