Month: April 2008

April 25, 2008

April 25th was one of the best days ever. I wanted to write about it so that I could document everything that happened that day so that I can remember all of it.
The day started out as any other day. I went to work. I had recently been trying to be funny so that my mood would follow and it would become a happy mood. Anyway, that morning Joshua, Kristen, Mark and I had an amazingly fun conversation that ended in at least one inside joke…”En Fuego.” None of us will ever see those two spanish words the same.
I got a call to go to lunch with Geoff, Stacy, and Bella…they were in town for a wedding. I met the Leatherman’s, Trent, Danny, and Wes at Chipotle. It was great food with great people. It just seemed normal to be with all of them. Bella is getting bigger and growing cuter and cuter by the day.
As I was walking to my car I realized…TODAY IS MY THREE YEAR ANNIVERSARY AT EBC!!!! I couldn’t believe that I had forgotten all day. That made me so happy that I had such a great morning and I knew that I was in store for much more excitement as the day went on.
In the afternoon I went grocery shopping for the Student Life Event that Mark and I had planned. After shopping I went straight to Joshua’s house to set up. It was neat to know while I was there that I could use anything that I wanted, and feel a bit “at home” even though I was at my bosses house. I was able to get everything ready a whole 15 minutes before everyone showed up. This means that I just sat there for 15 minutes…that does not happen in Student Life Event preparation.
So the BBQ started as planned, at around 5:30pm Kristen showed up to Joshua’s house. She was carrying a bouquet of flowers. I thought to myself, “She brought a centerpiece.” She walked over to me and handed me the flowers. “They were delivered for you” she said. I didn’t know who could have sent me the flowers but there they were, as beautiful as can be. I looked at the card, and it contained a sweet message from Heather, one of the girls in my Bible Study.

Beautiful Flowers from Heather C.

The BBQ came to a close and we left for our first ever EBC Mini Golf Tournament. We went to Mountasia in Santa Clarita. Around 20 students played in the Tournament. It was really great.

A Group Picture of the Students
My team consisted of Mark and Laura B and Andrew J. and I. Games are always more fun when you play them with Laura.

Laura and I

Mark and Andrew
It was a blast. We had a fun time and got to follow Kelsey, Sam, Karianne, Andrew, and Josh. The tournament ended with Andrew winning for our team and Malone winning overall.
Overall, it was just a fun, funny, and tremendously needed perfect day.

The Song

So today I have been thinking a lot. Thinking about how I really lack the faith to trust God in a lot of areas of my life. I have been so frustrated lately about where I am and why I am here. I thought that my life would look different from what it looks like now. I realize how much God does love me and care for me and I know that my life looks exactly how He wants it to look. As I was driving home tonight I was struggling thinking through this and I changed the music to more reflective music so that I could think more.

I put on my favorite song of the last year and began to sing. In the midst of the chorus I realized that the answer to all of my questions was within the words of the chorus. “Own me, Take all that I am, And heal me with the blood of the Lamb, mold me With Your gracious hand; Break me till I’m only Yours-Own me.” For a year I have been singing these lyrics and meaning it. “Take all that I am…mold me…break me till I’m only yours.” Now I am in the midst of it happening and instead of running to the arms of my Savior, I am trying to analyze why this is all happening and instead of trusting, I am worrying and taking all my burdens upon myself. He is breaking me to bring me closer to Him and I am ignoring Him because what I am going through is hard.

My prayers have changed tonight and I am now praying a different prayer. I haven’t stopped singing the song, but I am praying that God would change the desires of my heart, that He would help me to focus more on Him, and that I would be thankful for the things that He has given me.

Yes, my life doesn’t look like I thought that it would but God still does love me and has not forgotten me.

“God’s unfailing love for us is an objective fact affirmed over and over in the scriptures. It is true whether we believe it or not. Our doubts do not destroy God’s love, nor does our faith create it. It originates in the very nature of God, who is love, and it flows to us through our union with His beloved Son.” Jerry Bridges in Trusting God

From Squirrels to Rabbits

There are a few ways to get to the new house that I live in. I often choose a street that reminds me of the mountains that I used to live on. It starts or ends with a big curve and Lola (my car) and I both get excited to take that turn. It reminds me of the mountain. Tonight as I was driving home, singing acapella at the top of my lungs, I swerved to miss a rabbit. This is pretty customary at night, and it didn’t startle me but caused me to think of what else I used to swerve around. I had a hard time pinpointing it until I remembered the squirrels, up in the San Bernardino Mountains there are millions of grey squirrels. They are cute the first week that you live up there or if you are visiting, but after you live there you kind of get annoyed. They are always in the way, especially when you are behind the wheel. Now, I also had to swerve to miss bears and coyotes, but the squirrels were the most frequent.

In this thought process of thinking about squirrels and rabbits I was reminded how far God has led me in my journey through life. Not only from squirrels to rabbits, but from isolation into community. I can’t say that I understand the power of the church body when they are loving each other as the Bible tells us to, but I can tell you that in the past three years of being at Cornerstone and EBC, God has shown me time and time again how much I need the church body. Even though I am alone in the eyes of the world, I have a Savior that loves and amazes me everyday, and often times uses His people to show me that love. He has surrounded me by believers who love Him and point me towards His arms when I forget that they are there waiting to hold me.

The Lord is always faithful, the Lord is always good, the Lord is always merciful, the Lord is always my protector. Thank you Lord Jesus for what you have done in my life and how you are constantly working. I read Ephesians 3:14-21 this morning, and it just hits me time and time again how God does do abundantly more than we can ever ask or imagine.

Three years ago, living in a fifth wheel in the middle of a forest with bears, coyotes, and squirrels I never thought that I would be where I am today: content in God alone, patiently waiting and seeking after my Shepherd. “The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want.” Psalm 23:1.

And all this because of one rabbit that God put in my path.